Thesis
Any love poem I write says more about me than who I love.
Love Poem Draft Thirty Seven
The truest expression of my affection
is leaving you the fuck alone.
I know I really care
because I won’t let you be loved
by someone like me;
You deserve better than a girl
who breaks down these things like
romance is a problem to be solved
with the right equation.
I’ve gone on more than one date with someone I didn’t like.
I’ve preferred it.
It’s easier to become the person someone else wants
know when to smile and
when to laugh and
keep your back straight and
put on a good show.
Too many people have seen me and run screaming
And unfortunately that isn’t hyperbole.
I don’t want to see you run.
So I give my heart to those who’ll treat it poorly
because I know they’ll treat it poorly and
therefore am never surprised.
It’s intentionally bad taste.
I want to fall in love like in the movies
which is to say with a script
and no real risk.
This is all to say
I knew I really liked you
the moment I realized
your rejection might actually matter to me.
To Every Girl I Had A Very Codependent Relationship With In Elementary School
I’m sorry about all the times I
dreamed about kissing you.
When people talk about love
as drowning in each other
it’s you I think of.
I’m not sure I’m capable of that any more
or if I want to be.
It feels wrong to say that
wanting to be so close to another
that you slice your palms and mix your blood
is “playground love”.
All My Role Models Died Alone
I’ve seen women like me throughout history.
None of them were happy.
This Poem Has A Different Name
I’d give you love songs
If I could;
They keep coming out as dirges.
Great love should lead to
Great art.
Isn’t that how it goes?
You deserve a masterpiece
I’m not capable of creating.
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