sound muffled sight like a cheesecloth caught in a web
a tear against the sky (a window) drips down (slips down, slip gown) glass
ripping noise--
a stutter
cry
a shudder
a shutter closed to suppress a room of blue¹
a room of feeling
a room filled with glue
a room where the orange² sun hits the wall and makes a kind of
magenta³ color (re-member)
how many feathers
does it take to mark
an
empty grave
because i grieve the
truth* and the past
even though they are
not dead and drag on
[cry, remember, try to remember]
the fear of falling always follows even in sleep i dream of
someone (a hand) letting go and i dread the inevitable feeling of being dropped,
gold⁴ rings passed down a generation
does she miss them?
i struggle to find (a) room for my memories to resurface red⁵ and change but it’s hard
six.
1 ladybugs on the walls, painted and real. learned what bones are. learned what friends are.
2 stuck on a dresser, can’t get down feel on fire. wake up to the sound of a radio. sit on the tub. snuggle in.
3 a lot of jumping. a yellow house. pretending. petting a dog a walk-in closet kissing a boy.
4 the moon. an ipod. pink walls (not mine). not mine not mine not mine.
5 ink stains covered up by christmas trees. stomping. hiding more than usual. seeing the sun more than usual.
*as far as i know