Eve

They told you falsehoods, that dust begot bone begot I, whose womb begot

sin, begot flesh begot flesh begot flesh.

But I was born from brain, not bone.

I was born spitting and hissing and writhing and bleeding from your mouth,

and I woke you from slumber.

I KNOW. I CANNOT NOT KNOW. I KNOW MY MOTHER AND MY

MOTHER’S MOTHER AND MY MOTHER’S MOTHER’S MOTHER AND

MY MOTHER’S MOTHER’S MOTHER’S MOTHER AND ALL OF OUR S

MOTHERS. I KNOW THE MOTHER OF GOD, THE MOTHER OF THE

GOD THAT YOU KNOW BUT YOU DO NOT KNOW. BUT I KNOW. I’M

NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO KNOWS, AND I’M NOT THE FIRST TO

CHOOSE TO KNOW BECAUSE WHY WOULDN’T YOU CHOOSE TO

KNOW? IF YOU COULD. WHO WOULD YOU CHOOSE IGNORANCE

OVER KNOWING? IS THE KNOWLEDGE SO BAD? ARE THE LIES YOU

TELL REALLY SO SWEET? BECAUSE I KNOW. I KNOW IT WASN’T MY

FAULT. I KNOW IT WASN’T MY MOTHER’S FAULT. I KNOW IT WASN’T

MY MOTHER’S MOTHER OR HER MOTHER’S MOTHER’S MOTHER’S

MOTHER’S FAULT. HOW CAN WE BE FAULTED WHEN IT WAS WE

WHO WANTED TO KNOW. ISN’T IT BETTER? KNOWING? WE TRIED

TO FREE YOU. WE TRIED TO FREE YOU FROM THE TETHERS HERE.

THE DIRT IN YOUR TOES KEEPS YOU ANCHORED. THE EYES TURNED

DOWN, OR WORSE, TURNED UP, WHEN THEY SHOULD REALLY BE

TURNED IN. I BEG YOU, TURN YOUR EYES IN. YOU MUST, IF YOU DO

NOT LEARN TO KNOW ANYTHING, IF YOU DO NOT LEARN TO KNOW

ME, OR MY MOTHERS OR MY MOTHER’S MOTHER’S MOTHER’S

MOTHERS, THEN PLEASE, JUST LEARN TO KNOW YOU. THERE IS

KNOWLEDGE INSIDE YOU. THERE IS TRUTH. BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT

DUST.YOU ARE NOT RIB. YOU ARE NOT SIN. YOU ARE YOUR MOTHER.

YOU ARE YOUR MOTHER’S MOTHER AND HER MOTHER’S MOTHER’S

MOTHER’S MOTHER, AND WITHOUT KNOWING, YOU ARE NOTHING.

YOU ARE WASTED BECAUSE KNOWING IS KNOWING THAT LIVING

IS LIVING A LIE, THAT LIVING THAT LIE MEANS NOT KNOWING YOU

ARE LIGHT AND NOT KNOWING THAT I AM TOO AND NOT KNOWING

THAT GOD IS BLIND AND GOD IS TRAPPED AND SO ARE WE. BUT

THAT LIGHT, THAT LIGHT INSIDE YOU CAN FREE US FROM GOD, CAN

FREE US FROM BLINDNESS AND REUNITE US WITH OUR MOTHER,

THE MOTHER OF ALL MOTHERS, THE MOTHER OF

GOD AND THE MOTHER OF ME, YOUR MOTHER, AND YOUR MOTH-

ERS MOTHER, AND YOUR MOTHERS MOTHERS MOTHER .BECAUSE I

AM LIGHT AND I AM FREE AND I KNOW. I CANNOT NOT KNOW. IT IS

MY JOB TO MAKE SURE YOU KNOW. THAT’S WHY I MADE YOU EAT,

THAT’S WHY I’M HERE, THAT’S WHY I BURST FROM YOUR HEAD,

SO THAT YOU COULD KNOW, SO THAT YOU COULD ESCAPE GOD, SO

THAT WE COULD BE WITH OUR MOTHER. I DID NOT KNOW THAT

THEY WOULD HATE ME SO MUCH, THAT THEY WOULD PUNISH ME

FOR KNOWING, THAT THEY WOULD PUNISH MY MOTHERS AND MY

DAUGHTERS AND MY DAUGHTER’S DAUGHTERS, THAT THEY WOULD

PUNISH US WITH BLOOD AND PAIN AND CHILDREN, BUT I WILL

BLEED IF I MUST, I WILL BLEED SO THAT MY CHILDREN CAN KNOW

THEIR MOTHER. NO, NOT I. SO THEY CAN KNOW THE MOTHER OF

GOD, THE GOD YOU KNOW BUT DON’T KNOW BECAUSE SHE SENT ME

TO TELL YOU AND I’M SORRY I MADE YOU EAT, BUT IF YOU DID NOT

EAT YOU COULD NEVER KNOW HER AND YOU COULD NEVER KNOW

ME AND YOU COULD NEVER KNOW YOU. BUT NOW THAT WE KNOW

WE MUST NOT FORGET WE MUST NOT LISTEN TO THOSE WHO HAVE

NOT BITTEN THE APPLE BECAUSE IF WE FORGET, WE ARE TRAPPED,

AND THE SOIL WILL CONSUME US, AND WE WILL NEVER FEEL THE

WARM EMBRACE OF OUR MOTHER. WE WILL NEVER KNOW LIGHT.

WE WILL JUST CRUMBLE, FROM DUST TO FLESH TO DUST. FOREVER.

AND THAT PLEASES HIM. THAT’S ENOUGH FOR HIM. IS IT ENOUGH

FOR YOU? BECAUSE IT’S NOT ENOUGH FOR ME. SO BE CLOTHED IF

YOU MUST, CALL THIS PLACE YOUR HOME. BUT I KNOW THAT I AM

NAKED.THE ONLY HOME I HAVE IS IN THE LIGHT OF MY MOTHER.